This pertains to the abuse suffered by our Central Figure (CF). The ways abuse bothers us and imposes its edits on our lives. The magnitude of our abuse is affected by variables such as, how old you are when the abuse started, how severe the acts were, how long the abuse endured - hours, weeks, months, or years. It effects how we are defined, more importantly how we define ourselves.
Our central figure, Faris, is a 13yo teenager who had to go live with an overbearing uncle. Based on his age and circumstance his experience will be different than a 5 yo or 45 yo who faces the same situation. But whoever you are, what will be affected is your (loosely, laymen's terms)
Psyche - What you see when you look out of your eyes and see the world. What your spirit, soul, and body sees when it looks out of your eyes.
Mental - How your mind works to get (or not get) what it wants. The process you use to come to conclusions about the things you do.
Our CF, Faris, knew he was facing physical abuse but he had hope in the fact that his abuse would not last. A 5yo or 35yo who suffers physical abuse may have that hope but I don't think so because of the variables involved. One is too green and the other is too accustomed.
We can only talk about ourselves. I can only talk about me.
When I was being physically abused I had no hope and remember preferring death. What I saw when I looked out my windows, etched on my psyche was a bleak day even as I tried to go to school and 'act' like the other children.
What did my psyche see? What did my psyche grow and determine? From the beginning of the abuse, it told me, it saw the difference between my before and after abuse. It said, YOU ARE NO LONGER LIKE THE OTHER GIRLS; YOU ARE DIFFERENT. And there was nothing that I knew that I could do to change it. Due to Neglect, look at how you dress. They have money for different events; you never do. And the big secret, the sexual abuse, deepened that fissure of NOT LIKE THE OTHER GIRLS. I couldn't, didn't know how to dodge that.
But our CF, Faris, has hope. On our rode in life, negative/positive esteem can follow you a long way.
We'll start our first Forum with Physical Abuse.
